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September 19, 2019  MainEagle93: 7 years later  Visitors in town  4 years ago
May 19, 2019  Preferences  Passion for wrestling  4 years ago
November 25, 2018  A Wrestling Week-end in Burlington, Vermont  Recent matches  5 years ago
September 17, 2016  Intensity, charged and intimacy  Passion for wrestling  7 years ago
April 2, 2016  World Autism Awareness Day  Passion for wrestling  8 years ago
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Thursday September 19 2019 - MainEagle93: 7 years laterVisitors in town
I wrestled MainEagle93 (id 1086) today. He remembered that we wrestled about seven years ago and that back then, I took the position of a heel. He even came up with the name for one of my holds: The Loserboy Lock. I also think I was one of his first opponents.

Well fast forward today, MainEagle93 had numerous matches since then, he also ran in several marathon and took Judo classes. He beefed up quite a bit, gained solid strong legs and his fighting style clearly shows that he mastered a great arsenal of holds and an even greater passion for wrestling. Our match was supposed to be light submission, but I think it ended up becoming a jobber/heel match with a healthy dose of give and take.

Before hand, I was sure I would come in as the heel again, but he definitely turned the tables around to show me who's in control. It's as if the student that surpassed the teacher. Nothing I could do would budge this guy. I could feel that his strength has skyrocketed since our last meet. MainEagle punished me with holds after holds, some I couldn't even spell the name. He enacted his revenge by applying The Loserboy Lock back on me and even applied my own signature. He touched the right chords because I eventually laughed: I was receiving the right amount of pain. Eventually, MainEagle lowered down his guard, cooperated with me a bit more so I can put on him his own fair share of favorite holds: body scissors, grapevines, schoolboy pins and a fondling rack.

I did take the time to read a few notes that I've put aside for him: it mentioned that I should whisper these sweet nothings:

- There's only one submission I accept from you.
- The Loserboy is beating you now, so humiliating.
- How does it feel to be in my rack?


I tried remembering them by heart, but I had very little opportunity to cue in these quotes during our match because he'd rarely give me any control.

I never realized that MainEagle93 was of eastern European origin. To be specific, he told me that he had a mix of Polish and Slovakian ancestry, which is a very nice mix in my opinion. I also don't remember him having a hairy chest, but all the better for me.

He actually drove a *ALL* the way from Washington to Montreal (Google estimates this as a 10 hour drive), and drove an additional 4 hours back and forth to Mont Tremblant for sightseeing. Thankfully, the main reason for his travel was for a family event. Otherwise, I would feel bad just wrestling 90 minutes against so many hours of travel. As I told him, I can never drive more than one hour before falling asleep behind the wheels. On the contrary, despite the fatigue settling in, MainEagle did not show any sign of weakness when we tumbled.

He agreed for me to bring my camera, but we didn't use it after all because we had so much fun wrestling and we forgot about it. I was unsure about the camera at the beginning, because I do remember him being very concerned about his privacy the first time we wrestled. Over the years, he became very chill about it and started to include wrestling pics in his profile. That was the hint that pushed me to ask him if I can bring my camera. Nevertheless, we gave ourselves an objective to do pictures the next time we meet again. Either I go down to Washington D.C. or he comes up to Montreal again.

MainEagle, if you are reading, thank you for coming all the way up here and thank you for a wonderful evening match.



I do remember MainEagle telling me that I should probably define on my blog what is The Loserboy Lock. However, I think it's something that can only be defined one on one against my opponents.

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Sunday May 19 2019 - PreferencesPassion for wrestling
In my travels, I've met people who use wrestling to be able to satisfy a specific condition or fantasy that they really love. I call it "preferences", just to make it look nicer than "fetish" or "fantasy". A friend once told me that a hardcore "fetish" is really a condition that you MUST fulfill in order to come. However, I think that most people are lighter on their requirements and they are flexible: they will usually still gain pleasure through variants or other means.

I'm just listing some of these preferences now to recall some of my older memories. There's plenty more in this list, but I'll stick with a couple few for now.

• Head Scissor Lovers: Perhaps this is the most common preference I've seen in many wrestlers. Some of my opponents only want to be held for a long period of time. Squeezing them tightly until they tap, or remain within the boundaries and limits of submission. Examples of wrestlers having this preference is HeadSqueezeKing (id 5553) [ Entries ], HeadlockMeHard (id 2511) [ Blog ], Headscissorsguy (id 9989), Kevin_Patrick [ Event ] and SubJobber (id 713) [ Pic ].

• Body Scissor Lovers: I could classify myself in this category. I absolutely adore scissors, but then again, I love racks, bearhugs and full nelsons with body scissors. EvilDark (id 1077) falls into this category, but often enough, you have variants where people prefer the side body scissors.

• Gut Puncher and Gut Punchees: Pretty self explanatory. Marty (id 6169) [ Clip ] goes into this bucket, as well as AKRob. Despite the clips, I think both Marty and AKRob are more receivers than givers of gut punches.

• Sleeper Lover: I get a lot of people who wants me to sleeper them until they are KO and I always them that I'll never do such a thing. When dealing with the extremists in this category, I make sure to release much sooner than anticipated. The last thing I want is someone to fall unconscious while I have this applied. For some reasons, I don't have any examples of wrestlers that come to mind right now... I'll try to think about it and re-edit this later.

• Shoulder Riders: While this is not a wrestling hold per say, many look up to wrestling as a great way to be lifted and to be carried around. Shoulder rides are often used in tag team matches as well where one wrestler puts his opponent on his shoulder while the tag team partner jumps from the third rope and performs a lariat. Obviously, you don't see this often in our community, because we try to play safe and we don't have the training to execute such a maneuver. Anyhow, known shoulder lifters are Transporteur (id 5373) and John (anonymized)

• Face Sitters: I'd admit this is the hardest preference for me to fulfill. I've never been really strong on breath control. Some pains are fun, but this is a sort of pain or restriction that is pretty uncomfortable... at least for me. I don't mind sitting on someone's face, but to have someone butt on my face is... something else. You can't please everyone, right?

Nevertheless, most of the preferences I've listed here are easy to fulfill: wrestling is often an excuse to reach that desire. But you know what? There's nothing wrong with that.

Just like a chemical or electric reaction triggered my love for bearhugs while watching wrestling on TV, I find it that the same applies to many wrestlers that I've fought. One wrestler would watch a WWE wrestler apply the face sitter and that's how he got his fondness for this hold. Another one watched a cartoon of a body scissor being applied and that was his catalyst.

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Sunday November 25 2018 - A Wrestling Week-end in Burlington, VermontRecent matches
The customs officer at the US border patrol was very inquisitive this time around. I told the truth once again because if I lied or tried to hide anything, they would know. As I discussed in a previous post, I'll reiterate that these officers have interviewed hundreds of thousands of passengers in their lifetime and they've become experts in breaking people to make them tell every single ounce of the truth. Hence, the lady officer was surprised that I would wrestle in a hotel. She smiled as she interviewed me and asked me what happens if I break something. I replied that I've been wrestling for quite a while now, I always take a large room or a suite and I put things out of harm's way before I rumble. She was also very curious and asked me what was the name of the website where I meet my wrestlers. There's always the question of whether I am getting paid for my wrestling or if I will take part on tournament with prizes, but I always reply that I am a casual wrestler that does it just for fun, in private, and I never take part in public or any type of regional competitions.

I stayed at the Homewood Suites by Hilton in South Burlington, Vermont. A very nice hotel with a good amount of space to put the king bed on the floor for a good wrestling week-end. I came in prepared again with my usual 4 bed sheet clippers to make sure that sheets are not sent out flying when I roll on the mattress. One of the wrestlers later informed me that this is one of the rare hotels that actually provides you a fan. I know.. I already messed up the blankets and the covers, but that's what happens when you are a hotel/motel wrestler.




I met with with VTWrestleFun on Friday. We actually had our first match ten years ago and I still remember that back then, it was a submission bout where he was drenching sweat on me. I was however surprised in this encounter to realize that he shifted to pro. He enjoys this style a lot more, it doesn't get as sweaty and judging from his response to my actions, he prefers that I do not defend from his holds. He seems to be a pure heel, liking powermoves, specializing in lifts and slams, pulls them out very easily due to his strength. If I was lighter, he would press me over his head.

Lucky for me, by "lifts", this included bearhugs and racks, which we applied to each other. He was very nice to have it recorded and he told me that he does not intend to run for president anytime soon, so sharing it with you guys would not be an issue. We'll start with a few stills since it'll take me some time to process and edit out the setup frames and the silly parts of the videos.

This is my attempt of racking him: he bends nicely. I only wished he'd wear a speedo or something, but heck, I'd wrestle him in anything as long as he goes shirtless to show me his hairy chest.


His rack also packs quite a punch! You know.. considering the TV and the furniture on the background, it's no wonder why people are wondering with skepticism whether I have a history of breaking stuff in a hotel match. Had I or my fellow wrestlers lost balance, we could have utterly fell back and broke that screen or that nice wooden furniture, if not the wall or the window.


Luckily, nothing broke, because we are masters in the elegant art of racking. So now, I'm taking my revenge with a bearhug. How dare you rack me? It's funny, in this pic, either VTWrestleFun is expressing some pain or he is in a state of ecstasy. Which one is it?


But my revenge is never complete without my signature hold: The Full Nelson Body Scissors! The smirk on his face simply shows that VTWrestleFun can take it like a pro.


He told me previously that I can apply my scissor only up to 75% of their maximum power, but I understood from that message that I simply shouldn't put any pressure at all. Hey, I can learn too. I'll adapt my style if it means I can wrestle this hunk often. When we tangled, I realized that it was better if I was just following his moves and let him apply what he wants. I can defend, but just a little bit. Each time I would try to put something on him, he would make it very difficult. I'd pretend to do a face rake to take control, but it has no effect on him. Or maybe he thought I was caressing his face. I told myself that he probably wants to retain control. He likes half and full nelsons a lot and he usually goes for smaller guys. Incidentally, I think he stopped doing nelsons when I commented out that he seems to like them because of the frequency of its use, which is a bit sad because I absolutely adore nelsons.

He tells me some of the wrestlers he meet are disappointed because they wanted to be punished, roughed brutally, because it seems to be the general look that VTWrestleFun seems to portray from his general look and profile. I told him to take it as a compliment. He does look like a heel that would destroy you. Deep down, VTWrestleFun is like a harmless lamb. He takes things very easy, his moves are light and he is prudent when he manhandles his opponent. He's quite a strong guy, he slams, lifts me upside down and throw me down laterally and diagonally in a very firm and secure way.

We wrestled briefly for about an hour and we discussed about our wrestling styles and preferences. Big vs small are matches that definitely fits his cup of tea. I even think I might even be a little bit too big for him or that I felt he'd prefer me a bit more in shape. I did offer him to stay the night but he had to tend to his 3 cats and cut firewood so they can stay warm.



Suggs (id 3009) was my Saturday match. I try to be a bit more reasonable and scatter my matches by limiting myself to one per day. Sunday will be an exception though.

What can I say about Suggs? Well, for starters, he is definitely the funniest and the most talkative wrestler I've ever met. He's incredibly handsome in my book. To top of that, he also has a very nice personality. He looks like Seth Rogen and when he puts on his cap backwards in an attempt to make him look younger, it actually makes him look like Drew Carey. I actually see him do a comedy show or host a game show. He told me he could absolutely do Family Feud. There's nothing very difficult about saying: "And survey says?"

Wrestling-wise, this guy is pretty versatile, but prefers the promission style or total squash. Due to his shoulder injury, he plays it safe and light: he can be a complete tough heel or a submissive jobber that gets caught in a total squash match. You wouldn't expect that from his build, right? Suggs is just full of surprises. Both his wrestling style and personality will blend in with yours easily. Suggs admitted to me that he often gets to be the heel, so getting to jobber once in a while is quite refreshing. In addition, having seen my history of losses, he'd like me to score a win with him.

I did not read his profile carefully enough to realize midway in our session that his all-time favorite hold is the head scissors... and wow, this guy can really take it. He's one of the few that can take head scissors like a pro. No matter how much strength I put, he wouldn't tap. That being said, I should have been careful anyway because I apparently moved one of his tooth. That's why I don't usually apply head scissors to full strength. In this case, I probably should have verified that my legs were more around his neck. I was a bit too near his jaw. Also, let's forget about the body scissors. If he can stand the head scissors, then the body scissors won't even make him feel a thing.

I flirted with him a couple of times, but I don't think I am really his type. He's totally my type though, but then again, which bear have I ever declined? He was nevertheless a very good sport to wrestle as much as he did. He mentioned he was out of shape and had little endurance, but I felt he did great. In the future, I wouldn't mind being his complete heel since it would spell less work for him and since he's made so tough that virtually nothing would make him submit. I also need to remember he also loves bearhugs, camels and boston crabs.

Suggs complained about his belly, but I told him he is perfect how he is. He replies he wants to be able to see his "pipi". Yeah, It shows his type of humour. He did make it down from 260 to 230, so he can be self-disciplined as well. It felt lighter than expected when I was racking because I was mentally set for 260 and it really did not felt that way (not to mention he totally cooperated very well and he knew exactly what to do).

Suggs has one of the Strongest Bearhugs I've ever had the luck to be crushed in . Check out the video under [ Clip ID 350 ]. I was selling his bearhug badly, until midway through, there was a sudden change in my facial expression. I felt I was in trouble. I was actually thinking:

"Ooof! Ungh... URGH! This is a strong bearhug. I have trouble breathing... He's crushing me so hard that I might have to give up if he doesn't stop... but ... but.. would it be silly of me to submit in a bearhug live while the camera is recording?!?".

Not that I mind though. I love big burly men with strong arms and strong bearhugs ...that look like Seth Rogen. Hehehehe. Near the end of the video, Suggs adds to the bearhug a wedgie. It's apparently his favorite.

He was very flexible about producing content and offered me right in advance the possibility of taking pictures and videos. We took mainly videos, but I was able to get a few stills. You'll notice the same format because I tend to like racks and bearhugs

I racked him first and there was a little oopsie because I couldn't reach his trunks.


Suggs then showed that reaching for someone's trunk is never a problem.


And of course, I needed to apply that signature. You probably know the name by now. I'll spare you the repeat.


... And that bearhug! Suggs is a great seller. With his clenched fists, Suggs is in the fight for his life to resist the crushing might of his opponent! Will he break free and muster enough strength to turn the tables around? Ok, now I'm just employing the sentences I use as description in my matches.


Suggs is quite sarcastic. I asked him if I could put my arm on him just to hold him in a cuddle and he'd say no with a funny face, but I think he was kidding me and I took it the wrong way. I'll just force myself next time or hold him regardless. Or even better, keep him down instead with a schoolboy pin. As a matter of fact, I believe he likes doing that while slapping his opponents in the face. I remembered that because he eventually flexed on top of me and I told myself that was such a nice sight to see. I eventually gave him back his own medicine though.

A few days later, I received a note from Suggs telling me that our session was a total blast and that he can't wait until next time. That definitely gave me the boost needed to really cheer me up and look forward to our next encounter.

I also remembered afterwards that I asked Suggs what he'd like to do if he could choose his career. Being a roadie to setup/mount big concert stages for a popular rock band and doing tours traveling around the world were one of his passions. It does come with a consequence that it does hurt his ears a bit. The other was to be a pilot. He enjoys turbulence in a plane. The rockier it is, the more excited he becomes.



BadBillOfVt was my afternoon match. We've corresponded for ages as well, but neither of us took the steps previously to cross the border. Since I was on my way to Burlington, I gave him a last minute shout and he compassionately made himself available. We took it very easy, more along the style of give and take. Our chemistry was good and we each trusted each other pretty quickly. I was able to raise him in a Fireman's Carry, but we had a bit of trouble with the Torture Rack, so in order to play safe, I've decided not to pursue the rack after a first failed attempt. Doing it again might have spelled disaster. I know my limits and I should respect his.

We took quite a few shots, but I can only share the ones with mask or the ones where we don't see his face. So here it is: guess what? My signature again. Yes, that's a record: three signatures move on a same week-end. What better way to restrain big burly and cuddable opponents?


He also applied this nice reverse bearhug on the mattress:


And this rare technical Cobra Clutch. I almost was going to call it a half nelson, but a Cobra Clutch is a much more complex and effective than a half nelson.


I'm sure you realized by now that it took me a total of three separate trials/photoshoots to finally realize that I had to move the sheets, covers and pillows that I was accumulating on the sofa bed to another area so that a mountain of junk does not show up in the pictures. Sometimes, I can be pretty retarded. For a few examples, just look at the previous pictures I took above previously (scroll back up), before my matches with BadBillOfVT.

BadBillofVT is very nice guy and an often misunderstood wrestler. During our tumble, he was a bit tired, breathing fast and I was quite a bit concerned. As we made sure to include resting times between our lock-ups, he eventually recovered. He spoke and shared about his career and the development of his passion for wrestling. He started pretty late because of the taboo of wrestling in the past decades and also because he was very shy about it.

He kindly gave me this very nice spandex singlet. It has a very cool look. I'll be forever thankful. I love the pattern on the lower half and the whole gear is pretty high quality.


He did contact me afterwards to let me know that he was a bit sore, so I was apparently still a bit too rough.



WrestleInMN (id 3305) was my last match, on a sunday evening. Oh boy, there's a reason why I kept him for last. We've met about five times before, he always came up to Montreal to wrestle me. It was about time I paid him a visit.

I haven't wrestled him since May 2018. He came in July and August 2018, but he was only there for Montreal events (Fireworks and Highland Games). That being said, WrestleInMN has a sudden volcanic surge of energy this time around. He did one of my favorite moves when he's on me: he had me in a reverse headlock where his bulging hairy chest was on my face. I couldn't budge, do anything... Not that I really want to do anything.

He's one of the few wrestlers I can kid around by saying he is the Pillsbury Dough Boy. I also flirted him many times and probably blurted out one of the cheesiest sentences I've ever dare to say:

WrestleInMN: "Once I get out of this, hell you're gonna pay!"
Loserboy: "With you, it's always heaven!"

I actually couldn't believe what I've just said myself. Somebody reading this would probably be slapping his forehead right now.

WrestleInMN has gotten considerably stronger. He learned to resist and make himself immune to leg scissors. He was able to tense up his leg and bar off the pressure I use, even with my knees. This guy is really incredible. WrestleInMN taunted me about my useless legs now.

- "Where are the powerful legs that so many wrestlers have ranted about? What happened to those legs of yours? Why would wrestlers submit to those wimpy legs?", asked WrestleInMN.

Yeah, WrestleInMN loves to tease me now that he's virtually invulnerable. The only thing that can make him tap are the head scissors (and even there, I think I ended up pinching his skin or hurting too much a side of the neck unintentionally) and the reverse indian deathlock which requires his cooperation.

We still had an intensifying nipple pinching contest where he can be the only winner since he can still take it much much more that I can. I started to preemptively tap out to make sure that my nipples aren't too sore for the upcoming week. I want to be able to put a t-shirt and not flinch each time the fabric touches my nipples. It would remind me of WrestleInMN each time, although it's not necessarily a bad thing.

I had him in sort of restraining hold by holding his arm with both legs and holding his other arm with one arm, but this does limit the things I can do on him as well. As for the rest of the time, he was on top of me, holding me down, pinching and toying around with me. He knew that I didn't mind at all. I was actually exhausted after 3 matches this week-end and he knows it as well.

I need to review and update my notes about him: I've learned this time around that he can't get deep tissue massage because he would hold his breath and pass out. I suppose it either tickles him too much or it hurts him too much. However, touching him softly tames him. He knows me a lot by now, so he is always on his guard no matter what I do. He called my attempts to tame him with a soft caress on his back "Fake news" as in a deceptive way to get him to calm down, so I can plot to do a hold on him that would miraculously make him submit. He's not wrong, you know. How else would I fulfill my title?

After our 2 hours and a half match where he mostly dominated me, he took me out to see Burlington. He showed me the beautiful Church street. It's peaceful and serene, yet vibrant and beautiful on a Sunday night. Yep, it was already decorated for the holidays.


We walked around a bit and he was ranting about going up a hill. There's quite a bit of slopes in Burlington. I threw at him a little insult:

- "Are you going to be okay going up the slope or are you going to tumble and roll down the hill?", I asked.

- "Wait until I get you again in my holds", he replied.

Despite my sarcasm, he treated me out to a nice bistro called Sweetwaters where i overate. I learned in this dinner that he is a bit of a holiday grinch, but I had a very fun and amusing evening with him. He's sweet all around, has such a nice laugh and smile and his life is full of passionate things to share. After dinner, he showed me around the city a bit more and drove me back to the hotel. He is an absolutely amazing wrestler, a formidable host... and a very handsome bear, but I've already mentioned this before.

He kindly escorted me back to my room, we gave each other a big warm hug and I sighed as he left. He had to tend to his dog, so he couldn't spend the night. Burlington has quite a handful of animal lovers. I'll try to bearnap and raip this evasive bear another time.

WrestleInMN also has great empathy: he actually contacted me everyday I was in Burlington to make sure that I was fine, that I didn't need any food or drink or was not too lonely or left alone. Truth be told, I should have spent more time with him. Maybe I could have locked him down after the bistro, but I didn't want to regurgitate my burger in case he puts his weight on me.



I think both WrestleInMN and Suggs would get very well along with each other. Unfortunately, with the housing crisis in Vermont, nobody can host, so they never followed-up or met in any shape or form. They are very close in personality and character, they are both very witty, funny, extrovert and talkative, so I'm thinking of helping them host so they can both be together the next time I'm around. Incidentally, they both have the same age and they are both younger than I am. This is like bear haven.



4 matches out of 4. 4 was just the right amount over 3 days. Not too little, not too much. I am not too sore. Best of all: no cancellations. This is what happens in a small town of Burlington with a population of 43,000 people and 600,000 state-wide. The wrestlers here are respectful and welcoming. They do appreciate the people that come in to wrestle them. This is probably one of my best wrestling trips in my book.

I renewed friendship with an old friend, made two new great acquaintances and nudged the friend I had seen not too long ago. My only complaint is that a fun week-end like this passes by so fast.



Last thing I needed to mention that is a bit off books was that I gambled a bit by opening the Growlr application and caught a fellow called "B" who works as an opera singer. A very studly and big bear who is a very nice cuddler. Not a wrestler though, but he kept me company on a day where I was waiting.

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Saturday September 17 2016 - Intensity, charged and intimacyPassion for wrestling
The great thing with wrestling is that you can gauge the intensity of the match and you can switch between being aggressive to being absolutely cuddly.

In the heat of a submission match, you work hard to get your opponent to tap, you wrap them up in a body scissors and you squeeze them with all your might. When your opponent submits, you release the hold gradually, you put your hand on the back of his head withone hand and with the other, you slowly caress his back using a very soft touch...

After about a minute, you start cranking up the pressure again. Your opponent hardens his waist or abs and tries to resist to your submission hold, but he'll ultimately fail. You'll embrace or caress him again, showing that little bit of mercy between your lapses of torture... and you can continue this loop for as long as you want. After having fought for several hours, you can rest arm in arm. Or... you can put the side of your face on his pec and one arm over his other chest... or he can be the one doing it on you. Both of you take a breather or if both of you are exhausted, then a little nap together will define this intimacy between you and your opponent.

Yeah, I did wrestle this week-end, but I won't tell against whom.



It's important here to learn and respect the holds that your opponent like and dislike. You have to filter them out properly or use them moderately. A little bit of disliked holds can contribute to pumping up the aggressivity of your opponent and make the match more entertaining or intense, but too much of it will spark up a whiff of anger and distrust that can ultimately destroy the friendship between wrestlers. Sometimes, it's also better to completely annihilate those disliked holds or agree in advance what holds are completely barred from the match.

Handicap is an element I put in when I feel that I have a greater advantage against an opponent. For example, if body scissors give me an unfair advantage and guarantees me a win, I can at one point decide to stop applying them to give my opponent a chance against me. After all, we're both supposed to have fun. It ain't fun if the opponent feels that he is completely overpowered and that there's nothing he can do to make you tap. Toning the intensity down, leaving your opponent attacking first or purposely letting him apply a move are other examples of handicapping the match. This method is also ideal when fighting against beginners who would like to learn more about submission wrestling.

Not to worries, I've been many times on the other end: I remember fighting opponents that were way superior than me in terms of experience and skills. In most cases, the neat thing they did was that they switched from submission to pro. In pro, you can easily reverse the role and this is the opportunity for you to take the upper hand and learn a different set of moves. If you were losing in sub, then you'll likely win in pro. It's also a great way to take revenge on all those holds where your opponent made you tap in a very friendly way. Pro is much more elaborate than this, but this will be for another time.

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Saturday April 2 2016 - World Autism Awareness DayPassion for wrestling
So today is World Autism Awareness Day.

It reminds me that I met not too long ago a very great wrestler. He was stronger than I am, a lot more skillful and technical in terms of wrestling skills... in fact, he dedicated a lot of his life to wrestling. I'd say... probably more than I do and more than I ever will. I've known him for several years and he recently shared to me that he has autism. Albeit... a cured and now almost invisible condition of autism.

When he was young, he was bullied a lot because of his condition, he was isolated and he was violent because of his constant exposure to bullying. He later discovered wrestling as a way to control his anger. And today.. he can integrate society very well without people noticing that he has any kind of condition. I was very surprised myself because he doesn't seem at all like someone who has autism.

By now putting it and evaluating it into focus, I'd say I'd consider him almost an autistic person of the savant type considering his knowledge. But I admit it is often a misconception to think that most people affected by autism have also the savant skill... a misconception probably reinforced by the "Rain Man" movie. I'm saying this because this wrestler has knowledge that makes him needed in so many places and he is so much in big demand for important and large systems and networks. I obviously can't give more details on his job, expertise or skills.

I remember a story my mom once told me where a father had 3 kids that constantly fought against each other. The father placed all 3 of them into martial arts classes and since then, all 3 of them had stopped fighting. Fighting whether it is wrestling, karate, martial arts, is also about respecting your opponent, protecting them and others so they don't get hurt, knowing how to control your inner strength and your temper.

I find it beautiful that wrestling can be used as a cure or as a solution to a problem. This wrestler's story really touched me. This guy is a role model for me. Yes, if I could, I would move to the states to be with him... then again, I'd probably do this for a lot of wrestlers... hehehe.

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Sunday November 15 2015 - Walking with pridePassion for wrestling
When I was in Toronto, I met this guy who had a different way of showing his passion for wrestling. Sure, he would wrestle pro, flashing his single shoulder leotard singlet, talk dirty and employ dirty tactics. He'd mimic very well the nasty heel that the crowd would love to boo. But this guy would also walk in the streets where the gay pride events are held. Many people would stop near him and ask to take a picture with him.

A reporter once stopped him and asked:

- "Sir, don't you feel irresponsible wearing that little amount of clothing while there are kids around?"

He calmly answered:

- "This is gay pride and if the are children here, it's because their parents have brought them here. It's a way of showing them the culture and a way to tell their children that if they were also gay, their parents would be in full of support of them."

We all have our ways to express our passion for wrestling. I do it behind a laptop coding a site that helps people connect with each other, most people wrestle privately to fulfill their passion, and others, like this fellow, wears proudly his gear and takes pictures with every tourists as a way to share the wealth of joy and happiness of being a gay wrestler.

Honestly, it requires quite some courage and I do admire him. I make it easier for people to surf online looking for it to find what they are looking for, but for those who always though of wrestling as a taboo and believe they are alone in this world, this guy makes it a public statement that there are people just like them, who enjoys wrestling for more than just a sport.

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Tuesday November 10 2015 - LJ: UltimatumPassion for wrestling
The first boyfriend I met knew about my interest for wrestling. Let's call him LJ. He didn't wrestle at all. He did tell me he was ok with me meeting people, traveling the world and wrestle guys while I was in a relationship with him.

Deep down, he thought that wrestling was perhaps a fad that would go away... that it would simply dissolve or disappear with time. Unfortunately for him, as the years went by, my passion for wrestling just kept increasing and I would wrestle more and more.

Each time I would return from a wrestling trip, I would see him slightly hurt. I tried to console him and tell him that I will always come back to him.

Four years went by and my boyfriend finally sat down with me. He gave me this ultimatum:

- "It's either wrestling or me."

These are words that I would always remember...

It was a tough decision, but I knew that if I was committed to this relationship and no longer be able to wrestle ever again, I would feel miserable for the rest of my life. This probably also meant that I would have to throw away this website. There wouldn't be any sense for me to not wrestle anymore and still have a website to drool over the many wrestlers I can meet. No, I wasn't ready to leave everything I had built, cherished and desired over the years.

I told him I still wanted to wrestle.

Mind you, we stayed friends afterwards and he did tell me regretting breaking up with me. I told him not to look back. That if he hadn't break up with me, maybe I would have done it because my wrestling passion was tearing us apart.

Maybe 10 or 20 years from now, my needs for wrestling would change ... I am telling myself that if I was to settle down with a boyfriend, then he needs to have a passion for wrestling as well and that we would wrestle each other on a regular basis.

The wrestling community is pretty small though and finding that soulmate is like finding a needle in a haystack.

Nothing is impossible... maybe one day I will find this person.

When LJ and I stopped our relationship, we continued living together for a while... and then about a year later, I met Be-Bear. Funny, my first relationship lasted 4 years and a half. My second lasted 3 years a half and finally, my last one lasted one year. As years went by, I knew exactly what I wanted and what I did not want.

In the four years I spent with LJ, I managed to have a single bearhug... without heads. Yes, he was pretty uptight about his identity.


Still, this is better than nothing.

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Sunday July 5 2015 - 3 matchesRecent matches
My wrestling frequency has its ups and downs.. There are some months I don't wrestle at all... and others where I meet up with several people.

Luckily, in the past 2 weeks, I had 3 nice wrestling matches with great people.

I wrestled this very charming guy that came all the way from France. His pseudonym is Polyethylene33 from MeetFighters. I came in confident that I could beat this wrestler through submission, but Polyethene showed me who’s the real master. I don't think anyone had showed me the color of defeat as clear as Polyethylene. Strong wrestler, lethal scissors, great personality, handsome stud, an all around awesome guy.

Polyethylene33 clearly outmatched me. His technical skills and wrestling experience is beyond mine. If you think I have a strong passion for wrestling, wait until you meet this guy. Our match here was mainly submission, then we gradually went into promission and pro near the second half of the match.



Headscissorsguy (id 9989) was my 2nd match a week afterwards. I've wrestled him a couple of times before and he just adores being caught in head scissors. This one is more of a give and take session.



Lastly, I've wrestled today Rassleteeo from Globalfight. Submission and promission were the styles used here.

I felt we connected very well and we ended up wrestling for 3 hours. Rassleteeo was more of the dominant type, but I think I gave him quite a bit of trouble. Nevertheless, I had an absolute blast with him.



In case you wondered, I don't have any pictures for any of these. Pictures are things I rarely ask for people I wrestle for the first time since I don't want to scare them away. Also, by looking at the profiles of these wrestlers, it kinda gives me an idea on whether or not they want some. The overall vibe is that these guys prefer to keep their privacy and intimacy. The majority prefer this.. I'm just a weird guy that likes to take pictures of my wrestling prowess... especially if it involves racking a big guy over my shoulders.

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